Tuesday, 24 July 2012
I saw your email add thru your blog & I'm really just finding the courage and strength to write you. I'm sorry if this email might be confusing... this is my state of mind right now. I'm just going thru my emotions and write... Here it goes.
I'm a 34 yr-old professional. I had my test, my first & only test last Thursday, July 19th, and I came out positive.
I feel I had it for a long time now and I feel I'm already getting sick. I always get headaches, lagi ako nanghihina. I always get LBM...
I'm still in the process of accepting it. I'm only worried & confused now as to what I should do.
Sorry Bong. Nalilito ako... What should be my next step.
I feel I'm getting sick by the minute.
I really need your advise. I know you've heard this a million times but I feel so alone right now.
I feel I'm not ready yet to tell my family.
I just don't know what to do...
I really want to get healthy & I want to survive this... It's just hard that I don't know who to talk to.
I'm scared & confused that it might be too late for me to get healthy.
Thank you in advance and hoping to hear from you.
I'm leaving here my contact no. just in case... XXXXXXXXX
Thank you again & more power to you. :)
tough week for you i can imagine. and i feel your confusion.
id like to know where you got your test? and i suppose you got to talk to a counselor?
meron pa bang hindi nacover ang counselor mo?
the usual process is, you should be waiting for your CONFIRMATORY RESULTS in about 2 to 3 weeks.
after the results are confirmed and it is indeed "POSITIVE". you are supposed to be endorsed to a treatment hub
of your choice.
you have to report and register to the HUB and start baseline laboratory tests to asses all your
depending on the results of all your laboratory tests, your hiv doctor will recommend that you either start
ARV treatment or not.
disclosure to anybody of your friends and family will depend entirely on you as it is a very sensitive matter.
(i only disclosed to the people who i can trust my life with)
i can understand your confusion, its a common stage especially if you still dont know your exact health
status so i suggest you get your baseline laboratory tests asap. you have to remember that
help is always available and all you have to do is ask. there are a lot of positive support group
especially on twitter where you can seek help and still be anonymous. i am also always here
to help out if you have any questions.
whatever happened in the past and how long have you had it is already irrelevant. the important thing
right now is that ALAM MO NA and there is still time to do something about it. its not the end of the world
all you have to do is compose yourself and face it head on and stay upbeat... kasi pag mas lalo kang
nalulungkot or nadedepress, mas lalong masama para sa health natin.
i know its easier said than done but there is no other way. stay "positive" and seek help. you are not alone.
if you have unli calls, you can reach me 09174711979 or tweet me --- ako_si_BONG
welcome to the club - stay strong ;)
Saturday, 7 July 2012
Wednesday, 4 July 2012
i only remembered now, July 1 was the exact date i was diagnosed.
how could i?
- i was busy (lotsa work to be done)
- i never felt better, my labs are spotless
- cd4 count is steadily improving (next visit this july)
- lovelife is busy (i found someone *wink wink)
- sexlife is amazing
- career is likewise improving
how could anyone remember the bad memories if everything in their life seemed perfect?
i'v always been a happy boy, not even HIV can change that :)
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