Showing posts with label sad. Show all posts
Showing posts with label sad. Show all posts

Saturday, October 4, 2014

CHEM SEX & HIV!

"When I did get a chance to connect with others in this madness we sometimes talked about being HIV positive. People would say that they felt the disease was treatable now and that they had a second chance. That seemed to be the general attitude to HIV – that it was no longer a problem for them personally." --- http://www.beigeuk.com/2014/02/chem-sex-revealed-part-one/

nakakalungkot! pero parang nagiging ganito na rin ang sitwasyon dito sa pilipinas... me mga naririnig na akong ganito ang pananaw sa chem sex at pagiging positive kaya wala na silang pakialam. :(

stay safe everyone!

 

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Monday, December 9, 2013

MISS KITA!

Ang Disyembre ko ay malungkot

'pagkat miss kita

Anumang pilit kong magsaya

miss kita pag Christmas

Kahit nasaan ako

pabaling-baling ng tingin

walang tulad mo

Ang nakapagtataka'y

maraming nakahihigit sa iyo

Hinahanap-hanap pa rin kita

Ewan ko kung bakit ba

ako’y iniwan mong nag-iisa

Miss kita, o giliw

Pasko’y sasapit

'di ko mapigil ang mangulila

Hirap niyang mayroon ka nang iba...

 

 

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Tuesday, October 22, 2013

MERCURY RETROGRADE BREAK UP!

from http://www.astrologyzone.com/forecasts/mercury.html

At several points throughout the year most of us will be bombarded with the maddening effects of Mercury in retrograde. Mercury is a planet which governs all transportation and communication issues. Mercury is not an emotional planet, but rather a highly objective, truth-seeking one. It rules intelligence, education and truth. When it is in retrograde, some of its power is held back.

When Mercury starts turning in an apparent backward motion, we will start to feel the effects of this event days or even as far as two weeks earlier. When the planet normalizes we will see the tempo of events pick up in our lives as the planet becomes "stationary" and then speeds forward.

Gemini and Virgo are signs ruled by Mercury, so if you are one of those born during those months, you will be complaining especially loudly. If you work in the industries ruled by this planet such as sales, writing, public relations, advertising, publishing, air freight, the post office or express mail, any transportation industry, from the airlines to Amtrak, you'll also be especially vulnerable to this planet's weird motions in September. (If you are a Gemini, for example, who works in publishing, it's no use calling in for a month of mental health days--you can't escape!)

What happens when Mercury retrogrades? You miss appointments, your computer equipment crashes, checks get lost, you find the car you just purchased during Mercury retrograde is a lemon. (Or, you hate your haircut, the lamp you bought shorts out, your sister hates her birthday gift.) There will be countless delays, cancellations and postponements--but know these will benefit you in the long run. Don't fight them, although your frustration level and feeling of restlessness will be hard to cope with at times.

In matters of the heart, if your boyfriend or girlfriend breaks up with you or says something hurtful, take a wait-and-see attitude. Since Mercury rules speech, they may not mean what you think they are saying now. Let them have some space, and wait to see if they mean in October what they said in September.

 

ABOVE EXPLAINS WHAT HAPPENED LAST NIGHT WHICH LED TO MY SMS TO HIM THIS MORNING:

------ I love you so much hon! Di magbabago yun! I am letting you go not because i am giving up but because i want you to be happy. Remember to always reflect on what your goals are and what needs to be done. Sana eh wag mong pababayaan ang sarili. Ang mga boys will just come and go! Most impt is you love and protect urself all the time. I will miss you! Thanks for the most memorable 1 1/2 years of my life.

-------

and so today is the start of my new state of #SINGLEBLESSEDNESS #efavirenz4REBOUND

dont ask me if am okay coz am PERFECTLY FINE :)

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Monday, March 25, 2013

BATTLE WEARY

Battle Weary: A Poem by River Huston

 

Is it over yet?

crawling from a foxhole

made in the dirt

thirty years deep

the bodies are piled up

some old as cordwood

other freshly departed

Goodbye Ben

baby honey boy

you texted me

just last night

don't get it bro

but you're in God's hands now

You didn't get the memo?

it gets better, man

but I get it

you just worn out

worn down

How long can you live

with death firmly planted by your side?

it's that way for everyone

but for us it's visible loud

intrusive

bony hand on your shoulder reminding you

of everything you ever done wrong

I manage it

just some days the insides

turn to mud

and i can't get a grip

When the smoke cleared and the artillery

went from heavy mortars

to the occasional sniper fire

you'd think I'd handle it

cause i did the big fights

I survived sister

but it seems to have gotten worse though

when everyone was dying

somehow it was easier

it's that lone warrior

falling when you least expect it

it takes me down every time

This sadness is fierce

grief rolled up like punch

my ghosts

are loud

especially late at night

waking to conversations

long forgotten

My love, my love

how i miss you

Sunrise brings another day

some tea

put on the good face

the sea helps

if it doesn't make me cry

it gets me through another day

 

____________________________

i heard of a fellow pusit committing suicide a few weeks ago, even after a "self empowerment training" he has undergone --- sad!

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Friday, November 11, 2011

KEEPING MY MOUTH SHUT!

sometimes dumadating sa buhay mo yung may nararamdaman kang pain sa iyong puso...

wala sa lugar pero yun ang nararamdaman mo...

sometimes parang gusto mong sumigaw...

pero wala kang magawa kasi sadyang mahina ka...

at maiisip mo na lang... you get what you deserve...

minsan parang andaming salita na gustong kumawala sa bibig mo...

pero alam mong mas nakabubuting itikom mo na lang ang iyong bibig...

dahil wala ka sa lugar...

pero punong puno pa rin ang iyong dibdib...

at wala kang gumawa kundi ang lumuha...

wala kang masabihan...

kahit kaibigan mo...

hay buhay...

tang-ina!

ganito pala yun...


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BONG